I felt like being spied on.And I hate it.:(
Helping my Friend
16 years ago
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
undistinguished caller
October- a few 5am calls.A few disturbed deep sleeps. How stupid is he to say that he just wanted to chat with me at that time of the day.LIE. Maybe he must have lied better.His details does not relate in anyway.What a jerk thinking I'm that easy to fool.
November-A few 11pm calls.How unlucky is he,I am always asleep every time he calls. But he is still fortunate, coz I won't be able to shout at him and displace all my stress unto him.
December- The recurrence of early morning calls. It's 2 in the morning this time. I don't get the trend of his calls.I don't know why he can't speak words other than hello. He knew I answered the call,yet he's that stupid not to tell it right a way what he wants me to know. Gee, I really don't know who's the owner of that voice. And it's starting to freak me out. I can sense frustration from his voice when he is about to drop the call.
What must I do?
November-A few 11pm calls.How unlucky is he,I am always asleep every time he calls. But he is still fortunate, coz I won't be able to shout at him and displace all my stress unto him.
December- The recurrence of early morning calls. It's 2 in the morning this time. I don't get the trend of his calls.I don't know why he can't speak words other than hello. He knew I answered the call,yet he's that stupid not to tell it right a way what he wants me to know. Gee, I really don't know who's the owner of that voice. And it's starting to freak me out. I can sense frustration from his voice when he is about to drop the call.
What must I do?
How could you be so heartless?
Life is beautiful.Everything I see is a work of love.His love.
Yet I don't understand why in this lovely world comes a heartless creation.
If you don't like me, I don't care. I don't care about you anyway. You're just ruining my life.
You sound so good, yet you just mind yourself.
You seem so perfect to others, yet you're my culprit.
You're fooling me in anyway you can.And guess what?I know you're lying!
How could you?
How could you mind doing that?You're so selfish.
How could you take me to risk and you're in a safe shelter.
How could you demand so much and you're not even doing yours.
How could you teach me to listen, yet you're deaf when I try to talk.
How could you guarantee it all,in the end I take charge of the matter.
How dare you pretend that you pity me.You're words are cheap.I know you're not even bothered.
How could you be so heartless?
Yet I don't understand why in this lovely world comes a heartless creation.
If you don't like me, I don't care. I don't care about you anyway. You're just ruining my life.
You sound so good, yet you just mind yourself.
You seem so perfect to others, yet you're my culprit.
You're fooling me in anyway you can.And guess what?I know you're lying!
How could you?
How could you mind doing that?You're so selfish.
How could you take me to risk and you're in a safe shelter.
How could you demand so much and you're not even doing yours.
How could you teach me to listen, yet you're deaf when I try to talk.
How could you guarantee it all,in the end I take charge of the matter.
How dare you pretend that you pity me.You're words are cheap.I know you're not even bothered.
How could you be so heartless?
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
I'm a fool
I had a nice convo yesterday with my crush a long time ago and suddenly we we're up to getting married.Oh my geee.I know we we're just fooling around.But partly,I wish it was true. We really made a nice future plan. He even said he's willing to go where I'll be.There is some sincerity I felt,but we are not in a relationship. I won't expect anything,it will just bring me to depression. But I really enjoyed that convo we had,though in the end it is all a game.
A red Christmas for me.
A red Christmas for me.
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